I'm Worth It

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

There are days, ok many days, that I feel like giving up. I don't want to do this anymore, I just want to go back to bed. There are days where I don't feel like trying so hard. Maybe I can just workout sometimes and maybe a medium fry would make this hamburger ok. The unhealthy part of my brain tries to bargain. It tells me that because of ___ I deserve some ice cream, cake, pizza, soda etc. I tell myself that some soda is ok, but where is the line? Some soda now and some soda later adds up to be "OMG I'm drinking soda all the time!" I'm battling that part of my brain. I don't deserve ice cream, I deserve to feel good. I deserve to be healthy.

I bought myself some little notebooks to carry in my purse, just in case I need to write something down. They've been in there for two weeks and I didn't know why I needed them. I never need to write things down. But now I know. I need to write a letter to myself. Or a list. I need the support of friends and family to tell me that I'm better than fast food and that I deserve a healthy body, but more importantly I need my own support. I'm going to use my little notebook to write encouraging notes to myself, so when I'm struggling I always have my own support to read. 

I have to remember what I'm fighting for and what I've gained from this experience. I need to stop telling myself that I've only lost 15 lbs and rather that I've lost 15lbs!!

15 of these!

Because I'm awesome and I can do this!